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From Restlessness to Fatherless

Hey guys...
2:58 AM, Friday, 20 October, 2017
Have you ever felt so tired that you couldn't even fall asleep? Well this is the first time I stayed up this late in a very long time, I normally only stay up this late during school holidays. It is probably these Otees that I am eating right now. The latest that I normally stay up until is like around 12 AM, sometimes 12:30 AM. I admit that I might have a sleeping problem, but I really do not know what to do, I really try my best to try and sleep earlier but it is not working. Something keeps on sort of waking me up at night; but tonight is different, could it be because I was watching movies? Or could it just be because I was excited about seeing my friends tomorrow/today? I haven't been to school the 19th or yesterday so I was at home helping my mom with a couple of things and I was moving things around in my room, my room is kind of small though, not too small it's nice and cozy oh and I share my room with my little sister. Sometimes though it gets a little crammed (figuratively). I really wish that I get a new room to myself. My dad? His name is Angelo, he died about almost 2 years, when I was 15. My dad had a huge impact on my school life because he was the one who would help me with my tasks and other assignments. He wasn't the perfect dad but he helped me with everything he could, he even came to most of my rugby games , which was out of his way. Most parents won;t even bother with their children's extra-curricular activities but my father always tried to be at as many games as possible, yeah he couldn't be at my try-outs but he was at my first home game and at my first game as Western Province Scrum-half, I never really got the WP colors; because the couch didn't want me to play that much because at that time I was the smallest player on the field. After my dad had died I was in such a state that I did not want to do anything for a couple of weeks after that,I quit playing rugby and I never wanted to go out with my friends, I always stayed indoors, I also never really went to the library. It was a really difficult time for my mother, sister and myself. I miss him you know, it is really tough growing up without a father figure in the house.
3:49 AM

Alex out.

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